eehui

UPdates

2011-08-03T20:01:00.002+08:00

well now is my 雨過天晴 period i guess... hope it lasts for a long time =x... haha... made up with my sister... and no longer in same group as that person... but, still i think i have to watch my mouth =x ... exams coming soon and i haven study yet >< sianz.
everytime wan study then wan go nemasu (sleep) ... haiz...im afraid of my gpa results for this sem ><
stay positive....oh and... i realised.... i still love my sister alot... although will quarrel... but its normal right? sth that yu xin said is quite true... This life time... is for me to learn from or repay my debt from my past lifes... so its kinda true eh =x

eehui

and then

2011-07-17T11:23:00.002+08:00

the other idiot comes and find me...brags abt how clever he is. Treatsme like im so free like that. but gives me shitty work. treats us like idiots somemore. who does he think he is. i ask u to do this and u do other stuffs. only know how to give ppl more work to do ar... HOW DARE U say u did alot of work... mmostly crap la! wadever... u think i very free? i aso have a life to live ok! i aso have many things to worry like my mum's condition and my sis's realtionships with me and whether im truly fake or not and how my friends are going and how yuxin's doing she ok or nt... not like u la! potato u! one day when i really cant hold it in.... it would nt be surprising that im may do crazy things to u!!! Beware of me ok!

haiz

fine... sure...anything

2011-07-17T11:20:00.002+08:00

i think i get what u mean la? u want to coniue pretending i dun exist , then i shall too... well at least im more polite than u. ha. let's see who gets the last laugh then. well, maybe if im gone, then u wun be like this right? this is what u really wanted right? sure. i will grant u ur wish... but not now... bear with it hor! ha. im nt the little coward brat i once was, im telling u!

Just ignore me or notice me?

2011-07-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

i dunno. i know im really selfish. but have u wondered all i want is nt the branded stuffs or things u buy for me? u make me feel that feelings can be brought by using money. All i wanted was... i dunno? just sitting beside u all day, watching the tv tgt, munching our potato chips, growing fat.... a week without quarrelling.... i know that ive hurt u so many times in this 17 years... but... im still growing up? scolding me using ur sensei tone wont change me any better??? has that ever occurred to u? its not like i like u angry or wad.... who likes to be angry???? ur my only sister after all... i know i am very selfish. but have u realised that whenever ur irritated or angry, ur face is damn nasty? have u ever noticed that when u r angry, we quarrel, mama is stressed by it? haveu ever wondered why i always cry in the end? yes. i am weak. im a coward. BUT. i dont act. Maybe u have forgotten about this. but when i was younger, u said i was acting to look pitiful. so that mama will scold u. Do u know that this sentence haunts me until today? eveerytime i cry, be it quarrelling wif u or mama or u and mama or my friends, i would cry while asking myself : "r u really crying or fake crying? r u happy or sad? " i cant differentiate.... this is really confusing u know????? u think i like quarreling with u???? u ... rso unfair do u know??? only u can scold me vulgarities. only u can be angry. only u can give black face. only u can be bad tempered. only u canbe sad. only u can be the right ones. wth??? ur my sister i know...ya... but have u wondered about how i felt? how mummy flet?? everytime we quarrel, u give me the impression that im wrong. ya... 8/10 is mostly my fault. but im nt u... im clumsy! stupid! idiot! BLIND! DUMBASS! not like u... so capable... wad u want???? wad do u want??? all iwant is us nt quarreling... but then there we go again....
i know u have problems with ur work ppl, but, no one asks u not to complain to ma or me right? nv said anything. u dun say, nobody knows right??? and uu think ur the onlyone who got troubles.... ha... ... wad are families for???? ya... i know... u dun wan burden us... but hey, tho we cant really help u anything, but we can be ur listening ear! orjust sit beside u when u vent everything out... do u have to keep everything to urself??? u accuse ppl of doing this and this , but wad if they wont? u dun like ppl to accuse u, theny accuse other ppl? u r human, others are not human??? do u know that how scary it feels to contradict urselfwhile crying and looking at the fruit knife like it is a solution to everything??? i doubt u do ba... i dun rmb since when, everytime we quarrel and i cry, i would qn myself and if a penknife or knife comes across my view, i feel so tempted to end my life??? i doubt u knew... r we a family??? i make mistakes... now and then... very often... but the thing is im unable to learn my mistake by u scolding me and by me crying... u think its so nice to cry thrice a week??? go try thrn... go cry until tml morning ur eyes arepuffy with tears...i dun hate u... but pls consider other ppl's feelings aso!!! we have feelings!!! i have feelings! crying while questioning myself is gg to drive me mental!!! i really... dunno wad to do about u... maybe i should really learn to bottle erything up ... and hope i may get a heart failure soon... and die soon... maybe its a solution to our never ending quarrellings...

2011-02-15T18:41:00.002+08:00

Am trying to mug... exams are very very very neaaar.... die.... mugging... nt quite succssful... too much to worry and fret, too discouraged.... im gg to die of headcahe toooo ... nt enuf time ><>< ... oink =((((

First week of sch

2010-10-28T23:17:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. first few days nt bad ar... and aso no tut this week, which is a gd thing... next week onwards...might be dreadful... im currently taking Organic Chemistry 2, Principles of Inorganic and Physical Chemistry 2, Thermodynamics, Applied Mathematics and Introduction to french language and culture...

Well, next week onwards, i might really hate my mondays... Seriously... Monday blue blues... =.= ... Why? cos my class start at 10am to 1pm, then ONLY one hour break, next, i'll have 1 hr thermodynamics tutorial,3hrs laboratory and 1 hr french lecture continuously without break... die... hahaha

Dunnoe is whether its due to this few days weather or wad... altho i really like the cooling weather, i feel dead tired now... like gg to fall sick soon... i've slim-ed down from 60kg to arnd 56.5kg(this morning's record) from...saturday until todae? and... when its time for lunch, i dun have the appetite to eat... =( ... well, maybe i would go back to 58kg todae... =) cos i ate kfc wif my family just now... todae's the day for this week that i have the biggest appetite...haha...but jnow, im feeling dead tired and... like im gg to have fever... =.= aaaa...sianz... and then, worse, im currently my class's treasurer... which is stressful? cos im at lost with matters regarding to $$$. and that, i feel that my class's head apparently doesnt trust me at all... he makes me feel that im v.untrustworthy, irresponsible person and that he must always prepare stuff by himself... damn... and then, to add things more worse, this week's review of subjects makes me feel that i might have a hard time with all my subjects... even applied mathematics. waaaa.... can cry....

To Be continued

Dunnow y im posting even though my blog is so dead....=.= i must be crazy... and yu xin, i agree with u... most libras, like me, contradict themselves =.=

Stop observing and smirking! I have had enough of it! If im in the condition to use any means to wipe off that silly smile on your face, u wouldnt be able to have the courage to look at me anymore! i rather we go our own ways. So, put that arrogant face of urs away from my vision before i do anything desperate without contradicting myself.

last day of sem 1 vacation

2010-10-24T12:20:00.002+08:00

one word... SIAN! but... aso gt another weird feeling...kinda EXCITED? aaaaaa.... contradictions...=.= one day im gonna die from it?? blwahhh sian... cos i cant play com games when sch starts...yet, im excited cos its a new sem, new subjects, new teachers .... CONTRADICTIONS!!!! hurray =.=

and... im gg to die of awkwardness!!! due to some problems in...my social life?? i dunn really noe how to describe....aaaaaaaa

and.... i must arrange my thoughts... aaaaaaaaaaaaa.............

and i dun think i would be updating my blog after sch starts... unless contradictions follows me to sch and.... i dunno wad im toking about...nvm

nxt time then... would try to update asap?

Update 17-10-10

2010-10-17T11:40:00.002+08:00

OKae Okae... i've updated... But seriously... its cos i gt nth to share... or maybe nth that i want to share... many things happened around me and me... feels kinda dizzy...

im trying to exercise abit of self-control... on many stuffs... nt to be so immature... nt be so emotional.. not to stuff my nose in other stuffs...

the feeling of wanting to help others but.. i dun really noe if im in the position of helping them... am i in that position of doing that? am i just a nosey person... i have my own things that i duun even do welll... wad is their aspect of me?? huh...

so immature... so thoughtless... or am i worrying about things that im nt supposed to worry about?
or.. am i crazy? or... i dunno... some awful words that i shouldnt type here... and i aso realise... that my true char... doesnt have a defined shape yet... its...bcos im trying to be abit of this and that that i observed from ppl arnd me?? stimes... bcos of this... i try nt to be too close to anyone...

Contradictions... a complicated person... eh.... i can tell others to do this or nt... bt me leh? i dun have anything for myself... huh...

aaa... im nt emo okae... altho... its sound quite emo... my mind is practically rojak....hahaha... nxt time then ...

2010-08-11T14:24:00.004+08:00

... i hide too much le... last time hide until now wan open aso difficult le... i really hide and deceive everyone and even myself.... cos... i really dunno wad im really feeling rite now..... hiding has made me ... develop two types of personality?...i realli dunno how to differ...
bad and trying to act kind or nice trying to act bad... i dun realli noe...

which is the real me? i feel so bad about being so nasty to ppl and then i feel pissed for not being nasty to ppl.... complicating....

Cant i just have one...personality?

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2010-07-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

So... its time everyone go on their separate ways then..... even if we used to talk so much... care for each other... maybe.. cared is a better word... ... haiz...

... i'm stuck... =(

2010-07-15T10:04:00.002+08:00

Its not like im emo-ing... its not like i dun have friends... its just that... i dunn think im a true friend to my friends... how??? stimes i think i see their pain, but they say they r not... so im suspect myself for thinking too much... bbut... when it comes to them crying out loud or wadever... i want to help them... comfort them... but... i cant seem to do anything... i always feel helpless... like i dunno how to help them.... seriously... think im gg burst le... mentally.... wan help but cant.... wad's wrong wif me???

and i realised... im not being myself when i am with most of my friends... what's wrong? i aso dunno... Just that... im like faking my days with them as someone else... to try to make them happy... and i cant carry it on... occasionally, i'll lose mytemper... i cant keep this up... how to be myself??? i dun even know wad i m... wad is the real me??? 0.0 i got no idea... but if i dunno , who will know??? alamat... im confused by myself... how can that be???

and then ive been very slow and unmotivated this days... y?? slow... i dunno??? eat more fish... my mum would sae... would that help =.= ... unmotivated... i have not been revising these days... and then, when i try... its very sluggish... y?? i become more and more of a slacker???? i need motivation.......... waaaaa... and...then... i feel very lonely in sch... not as in my friend dun like me or ignore me... but... there are alot of things about them i dunno... and i dunno how to communicate wif them.... there's this huge gap.... and... another wide gap between me and my 'old' friends... i try to contact them.... but... it doesnt last long... like eg. shi chin they all... haiz

this is a place for me to scream????

eehui

Now...i am....

2010-07-03T23:18:00.001+08:00

...coughing-coughing

haha...psps...gt nth to do... so i just ... randomly write this lor...psps

-No Title-

2010-06-30T20:23:00.005+08:00

HEY!!!!! Ima an not emo le... so no fret ok?? thx for those who were worried =) and... im noe emoinginacorner-drawingcircles-inacornerofmyroom-growingweirdmushrooms le =) thx =)

about my sch liife...these days... is not bad laaaa.... =) ... am finding science is getting mmore and more interesting =) *happy happy* hahahahaha.... but my current classmates are having some personal problems... but i dunnoe how to help them... haiz... i really dunno how to cheer ppl up or encourage them... =( haiz... maybe i will just act and be normal... hope they will be their normal selfs again soon?

...im really still a kid... =x haiz... but i dun wan to be too mature... like... not the real me?? just let myself be myself is better rite??? haiz.... anywaz... eclipse is coming... i wan watch tyhe show....desperately XD wahhahahahaha...

ya...tat's all... im very random de =) ..... .... ... ... ... ... write nxt time... ...

eehui

Current thoughts

2010-06-24T21:32:00.001+08:00

...Guilty... Tired... Bored... Trying not to be emo...

Heart....ache

2010-06-21T21:23:00.003+08:00

Everytime... Everytime i see u smile becos of sth that i do or said.... i feel so happy .... so happy that even i m surprised by it.

But, at the same time, i really suspect if it was becos of me that u smiled....

...er... Random stuffs again...

2010-04-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

er... i just realised... my blog is dead... weee.... haha... cos im lazy..... =x ....

As some of you all noe, im a random person... so i will talk abt things v.randomly.... sorry =(

Here
I
Go....

1) I miss sec. sch life T.T ... was at mac with sis todae...anda i saw xing gan nv and friend todae at Mac... They were studying for their coming exams ... =x ... suddenly rmbered how i used to come to mac and study with ailing, sc they all =x... TTT.TTT

2) STUPID HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAWR>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> If ar..... if one day, homework is banned... maybe i wld be crying with joy??? and jumping like mad??? hmm....

3) I guess ... i dun care about how i look alr ba... anyhow wear clothes to sch can le.... trying to be neat and pretty all day long is a difficult task for me ... T.T maybe i shld ask ppl how and wad they wear to sch... hmm.... pajamas with flip-flops?

4) Must study hard le =x .... 1st year.... depressing stuff... =x -END-

5) I maybe joining choir as my cca in TP... maybe... its monday and tuesday 6.30pm-9pm
TTT.TTT still thinking about whether i shld join, although they alr smsed me to go audition le... =x ...

6) I keep eating alot of stuffs these days >.<>.<

7) maybe i shld be abit open... but how??? when i try to be abit more open, i feel very....fake... and i dun like it
i only like true feelings... how???? but, like tat how am i gg to make friends with my coursemates.... anda... im v.clumsy ... TTT.TTT me = super nerd one....

8) my personality ... gt problem now.... =.= .... alamat... im gg to emoinecorner le ... =.=

nth to say le... shld be random enuf ba? hehheh >=)

eehui

AAarrrggghhhh

2010-04-24T20:40:00.002+08:00

School started... lazy to blog nw...my apologies

work work and work....

2010-03-28T18:29:00.003+08:00

these few weeks... ii've been working.... quite fun ba... at first i was working at the accessories section...nw transferred to the shoes section.... but... these days.... i keep asking for off days>.< cos fell sick le ... feel so bad.... then they have to ask ppl to take my place...and that means my $$ is gonna be so much lesser
T.T
but aso gd ba... although its me who wanted a job first.... bt now... im thinking...alamat...work again =.= .... =x.... hmmm

hmmm....

i dunno wad to write le
...
eehui

exhausted...bt.....

2010-02-06T11:32:00.002+08:00

haha....er...working now... todae's my dae off.... its tiring as there are alot of customers these days... most probably due to quite dramatic promotions .... buy 0ne get one free and 70 % discount items.... scary.... was super busy yesterday.... and i panicked... adding more work to the ppl there.... there are two supervisors.... another one on unpaid leave....im the youngest there.... but they are really nice to me.... seldom scolds me and teaches me patiently....and my breaktime is whenever i want... just that one hr is for lunch break, one hr is for dinner break.... they sae when im hungry, just tell them and i can have my break =)

bt...however, there are sometimes that i really dun like.... er... putting lip gloss and stuffs.... and aso lunch break and dinner break.... sometimes there are too many ppl that i have no place to makan at.... the lip gloss things.... ha... luck me Xd .... the supervisors there nv sae anything when i only apllied lipstick or lip gloss.... ^^ bt... the lip gloss.... must be apllied a few times aso... so ... i aso dun like this.... hehheh.... yup ... that's all.... todae's my off daae ^^ so i can use com ^^

ahahahahahaaha... me siao le.....

edriyon

... >: s ....

2010-02-03T15:28:00.004+08:00

Just received my interviewer's call.... work starts tml.... .... super scared now..... hope the supervisior there nt bias de... >.< ... or else, i will TTTTT.TTTTT

later gg out with my sis to buy some pants and clothes and shoes .....
=z

eehui

nervous nervos =#

2010-02-02T08:35:00.000+08:00

gg for interview ler.... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Ha!!!!!

2010-02-01T23:14:00.002+08:00

todae i didn do nothing hor!!! >=D (to someone)

This morning, i tried my best to change my blogskin ... but it became from GOOD to WORST T.T
then went out wif mei mei ( Kenlia) to find job.... went to Dobby Ghaut de plaza singapura to find action city... and fount out they had moved.... so! we went to Marina's Square and they told us to fill up a form in the outlet at Somerset 313.... my face became T.T''' ... went to eat Subway wif meimei.... then i kept saying somerset 313 to 303 until meimei =.=''' me...haha.... cos i'm taiwanese ma!! XD
kept thinking about 101 大楼 in taipei... haha

After, we ate our lunch, we went to several shops like Dorothy Perkins, Esprit and Diva etc. to look for part-time jobs.... all like no hope der... =x.... then, we went to Somerset..... der 313 .... chiong straight to the action city outlet, filled the form... and tried our luck at several other outlets... like forever 21 and... er... i dun rmb le....amd a accessory shop there etc.....

Then, my lao po called meimei.... and we met her at Bugis there... =)... before we met my lao po, we went job seeking at bugis again...haha..... then we were told by one shop manager to go for interview tmlmorning.... haha... was feeling ....quite EXCITED.... bt nw... abit scared le =S ....

Later, i PSed meimei and my laopo ( or they PSed me??? i duno =p) and went to Tampines Regional Library to find out more about my course... super angry de.... most of chemical engineering de books are only for reference der.... and the one book that is about chemical engineering... i cant find it!!!! and the CD attached to it requires me to go to another library branch which is at the other part of Singapore =.= ... stomach growling too loudly that time... so i just went straight back home....

-THE END-

XD eehui

Woops!!!!

2010-01-18T17:25:00.002+08:00

i just wrecked this blogskin =x ..... NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNnnnnnnnooooooooooooooooooooooooo

er... u can say im emo now??? bt i like these songs... haha ...currently....

most importantly...... wad i really really really wan to sae is.....

I WAN TO SINGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn =.=

eehui

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2010-01-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

long time no post??? lazy le.... didn get results i wanted... so everyone including me super disappointed..... i dun wan to say le....

nxt chapter.... on the way... really really nid to work hard le =x .... the song is a really contradition to my mood now... =.= ..... bt no song i can think of le.... =.= Poly.... hmm.... nv really considered.... now no choice le.... .... crap..... must really work hard le.... T.T

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eehui

Random~ness

2009-12-04T16:18:00.002+08:00

Rain~ =x ...so unfair...wan go out de...the rain like.... i dunno.... maybe pouring is a better a word... hmph~ =x.... disappointed... in the end nv go out... but nxt day aso can ba =) ... so no worries ^^

watched 原来是美男啊 =) ... happy happy => thank you sis! (you know who i mean jiu hao le ^^ ) ... <3 泰京！！！

haha ^^

eehui

Home =)

2009-12-03T20:01:00.002+08:00

these days i've been at home... er.... to be exact ...two days only =) watch korean dramas until v.shiok ^^... getting fatter and fatter ^^ ... happy =3 .... gg out tmr with jaime and ailina and maybe rebekah tmr ^^ to Orchard ^^ i plan to go to Orchard ION and Orchard Central? or Central Prchard... to window shop... never been there before ^^... haha...

on mon 30th Nov, i had Choir ROD ^^... its fun ^^ but i regret wearing long pants... love my juniors =3 ... HuiLun and Olivia and Sandra came ^^... happy happy >v< haha... but abit awkward... cos nth to do... so like just sit there... lazy to walk arnd haha... in the end... still v.tired... and went home early.... ^^ ... next day, gt slight flu ^^ haha... bt still.. its nice... ^^ dunno why this days super short tempered and tired .... haiz...

next time then....

eehui

I wan buy RANDOM

2009-11-27T21:28:00.003+08:00

lol... today went out with AiLing, Jaime and Rebekah to celebrate Lena's Birthday on 30th Nov...

=3

we went to Marina Square's HotPot Culture to makan from 12 noon to arnd 3pm.... was super angry... we booked a place for 5 ppl today on this wednesday... but they say dun have.... then they say they wrote wrongly... however there's no apology given... and then, we have to keep asking them to refil our cups.... =.= .... then place some dishes like _____ squid on our table when we never order them....RRRRAAAAWWWWRRRRR!!!! then, later...we were chatting... then Jaime said... XD "i want to buy Random" XD super cute de wor x3 hahaha ^^ LOL .... RAndom Shop... ^^ Random Us XD .. .then Lena opened her presents =)

Then, we went to the arcade... and lena and rebekah played parapara... i played once or twice too... but.... wearing dresses and dance is abit...difficult.... so.. ailing and i played shooting games, shooting at ...rather cute mummies and skeletons compared to those in the House Of The Dead...^^ then meanwhile lena and jaime and AiLing played the jungle game... shooting at BIG BIG de spiders =) ...but lena and rebekah very pro lor... dance until so gd... ^^ then there was a guy who played parapara mix2 continuously ^^... AiLing and I agree that he looks like practising Tai Qi and another who uses his head too ^^

Then after that we walked arnd Marina Square... .hahaha... nothi8ng to do and play ^^ cos the K-box there v.expensive =x ..... haha... we were very tired then .... ... we stopped by the ... wad is that called? the one u pay money and use the machine to capture the toys??? but anywaz, Rebekah caught a Doraemon ^^ ... then went back to the arcade... Lena and Rebekah played parapara again... AiLing and I was resting.... Jaime jie stood closer to them..... then Jaime, AiLing and I went to play the shooting game...the cute mummies de.... and we saw the pros 0.0 haha... then went home at arnd 7.10pm.... =)

THE END

Wish Kenlia mei was with us =x ....

eehui

Back...

2009-11-20T09:55:00.002+08:00

Finally in the mood to post....sorry ar.... yesterday went out with Jaime jie jie and Kenlia mei mei....
ar... i dun sound like me.... ... ... haiz.... Kenlia got her four leaf clover and a chain as necklace.... =)
then we went to eat Sakae Sushi at Bugis....haha.... arrr..... i dunno wad to say le.... but that's all i think.... just that i enjoyed myself and hope they enjoyed too.... but the weather seriously horr..... haiz.... rrrraaaaiiiiinnnn..... haiz
although its cooling and i love it...but the rain's getting onto my nerves le..... go out rain...... haiz....
ya....that's all i think...

eehui

Numb

2009-11-16T12:30:00.001+08:00

Ya... O'Levels is finally over
However... there is a very upsetting news... so.... nxt time then update

EeHUi

Updated!!!

2009-06-01T15:56:00.000+08:00

ermm...Finished chinese BIG O le... dunno whether can get A or not.... Sian..... Mum allow me to use com awhile.... dot dot....and just now chiong finish this blogskin.... suddenly know how to edit the skin myself.... ...sian.... headache... Now dun nid go choir.... abit weird eh... although i scolded choir at their very beginning practice after SYF..... weird.... Feels isolated and quite lonely now.... all the more want to go for choir practices....haiz.....

....Yay...i'm a weirdo....yay?.... =.=''' ...nvm.... gtg.... nxt time then update.... Ja....

edriyon...eehui

OH YA!!!! YOU CAN ENLARGE THE WOEDS BY PRESSING "CTRL" ON YOUR KEYBOARD AND THEN USE YOUR MOUSE TO SCROLL UP/DOWN.... COS I DUN MEAN IT TO BE SO SMALL DE.... that is if u can c wad im writing... =.='''

Introduction

2009-05-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

ermmm...hi... sorry for the inconvenience...tis is my new blog as i cant rmb the password for the previous blog.... will update nxt time... too lazy to change blogskin and put tagboard....gomem nasai....

edriyon....eehui

SYF 2009

2009-04-23T17:25:00.000+08:00

Choir got a silver! ^v^

edriyon